INsAnITy

Ok ok I know its been a while since my last post but I have been so so busy!! I know everyone has things going on and stuff to do but seriously I could very well loose my mind.

For those of you that don't know, this year I am on the committee for the West Jordan Relay. With the relay coming close to an end I do see light at the end of the tunnel. I have been more than honored to be a part of the relay and raising money to help fight cancer but it is a very hard calling. I am in charge of Sponsorship which means trying to get business to help sponsors the relay with big donations, which is a hard task in it self. To make things worse I am on the committee by myself. I have definitely had people reach out and try to help me out which I am so grateful for but it is still a very grueling task. During all the calls and letters I've sent out, my team has also been doing little fundraisers to help raise money. We had a very successful yard sale, a fun poker and pool tournament and will be working a hamburger stand. I am very excited about all the money that we are raising but I can't wait for it to be over. I'm going to need a massage and pedicure for sure... not to mention a very long nap!!

In the midst of all this I have also accepted a new job. My schedule is now this: Monday teaching dance for 2 hours; Tuesday, Friday and half day Saturday work in Salt Lake; Wednesday and Thursday work in West Jordan. If you're following, yes, that is working 6 days a week!! People ask if I am crazy and if I really do realize that I am pregnant, but it's just what I have to do for the time being. It will definitely give us some extra money, which who doesn't love, plus I don't get maternity leave pay so will need any extra income now so I can take as much time off as I need when little baby comes. I know there are going to be days where I am exhausted but I just have to organize myself and be a planner. Plus I have an amazing husband who helps me out wherever he can.

Now I'm not sure if its just my pregnant hormones but seriously people are getting in my nerves more than ever!! Not only is it people I know but strangers! Here is just a list of s*** I am sick of hearing!!!

Question: What do you plan on doing after you have your baby?

Answer: I'll cut down to a few days a week and have my sister watch him while I am work.

Response: Oh... that's great. ( in the tone that really means WHAT!! You're not staying home to raise your own kid?? You're going to let someone else do it???!!!)

My thought: LADY you don't know a thing about me or my situation so don't judge me!!

*Wow! You're getting big. You're going to have a big baby. I only gained 14 pounds my whole pregnancy!

My thought: Wanting to kick their anorexic a**!!

*Trying to pronounce BEAU.

My thought: It's not rocket science its pronounced BO- we're just smart enough not to spell it that way and give the kids a head start to make fun of him.

Not everything has to do with the baby either.

*People who don't come to the dentist for years and then wonder why they need a deep cleaning that costs them $500-$1000.

*I know coming to the dentist is a real phobia for some people, but seriously.... polishing your teeth doesn't hurt!

*Being 20 minutes late for a schedule appointment... YES! It does throw my entire day off schedule.

*Sitting in the room when your boss and patient are speaking Spanish not knowing what they are talking about. For all I know they could be talking about me and I am just smiling and nodding!

*Looking ridiculous in sweats in 75 degree weather but seriously they are the most comfortable things ever

*Road construction!!! If you live anywhere out here you completely understand.

I know this post is a complete b**** fest but everyone needs that once in a while. I need to get it out somehow or I'm afraid I'll blow up on someone who doesn't deserve it. I am so sad that I haven't even posted a baby update. That is coming and even a belly picture.. I promise!! I just need to get through the next week.

I do have to mention the one thing that has saved my sanity is So You Think You Can Dance. I know it sounds ridiculous but it is true. I could watch that for hours everyday. I am living my life vicariously through them. I am just like Mary when she said she wished she could have half the talent as those dancers. It;s usually a but early for me to have favorites but I love love love Kayla! She is absolutely the most amazing dancer.

IT'S A BOY!!

For those of you who don't already know Josh and I are expecting a baby boy!! We couldn't be more excited. My dr's office doesn't do ultrasounds until 20 weeks and with Josh's work schedule I would''ve been 21 weeks. I just couldn't wait. So we went to Fetal Foto. It was the most amazing experience ever. The tech was awsome. She took so much time with us. We got a ton of pictures and a DVD played to music of the whole thing. Seeing our little nugget move all around made this more real than ever. He is such a wiggly guy, and yes I feel it everyday!!! It is much better than me puking though!! It's been almost 2 weeks since something has come up and I couldn't be more greatful.

The pictures are so cool. He was quite pissed at first having people push on him so he wouldn't hold still or give is a great bum shot, but once he did we could definately tell it was a boy!! It's nice to stop calling the baby "it" and can say "him" or even call him by his name, Beau. We're pretty sure that's what we will be naming him.

I thought a girl would be fun to go shopping for. All the bows and dresses. But there are some dang cute boy stuff. I can't wait to go shopping.... I could be in a lot of trouble!!!

16 Week Update

16 weeks..... I should be feeling decreased urination; an end to, or decrease in, nausea and vomiting; occasional headaches; increased appetite; and possible fetal movement. Well lets see- I still wake up 3x's a night to pee, still have been puking, having headaches on a daily basis, living off Ritz crakers and OJ and no movement yet.. at least I think!!

This week has been awful!! I'm sure I had a titch of the flu but I was so so sick. So sick I had an emergency visit to my dr's and was hooked up to IV's with medication to help with my nausea. My Dr was worried because I was in the office a week prior and had lost a lot of weight in a week. So I was given a prescription to help with the nausea and will go back in 2 weeks to get checked. They did check the babies heart beat and everything was normal and right on so no worries there. It was just the most miserable 2 days of my life!! I even called my mom at 4 am convinced I was dying. I took 3 days off of work just trying to sleep and rest and get better so I don't get worse and worn out.

I feel like such a complainer but I really am excited. There are days I call it a "demon" and other days a "nugget" just depending on how I feel. I can not wait to find out if it's a boy or girl, only 4 more weeks!!! And I have yet to post a pic of my belly. As soon as Josh gets home I will have him take one of me. I am definately growing, still can fit into my pants but the best invention in the entire world is pregnancy pants!! If I knew how comfy they were I would've been wearing those a long time ago!! Great for after eating a huge meal, I can just let it all hang out!!

Lucky Draw

Back in February it was time for my dad to put me in for special hunts for this fall. Well little did he know that I was pregnant at that time and was due in the middle of hunting season. My dad didn't think I would even draw out so he put me in for a private Buck permit on CWMU land. Well..... as lucky as I am when it comes to hunting I drew out!! Not only did I draw this awsome buck permit but I was the only one that got this permit. There was 1 permit in the entire draw and I got it!!! Needless to say Josh is pretty pissed because I always draw out the good tags and he never gets anything!! So either I will be giving birth out in the middle of Skull Valley or shooting a trophy buck 2 weeks post pregnancy!!!

Easter

This Easter was so amazing!! My mom, sister and I got to go to WICKED!!! We have had these tickets for 6 months, before they were released to the public, thanks to me being on 2 phones and the internet for 3 hours!!! We got the most amazing seats 5 rows from the front in the middle. The show was so good. So much fun. More than I could've ever imagined. Well worth the $145!! Thanks Mom for such an awsome day.

10 Weeks

Today Josh and I went in for my 10 week visit. It was a very special appointment because we got to hear the baby's heart beat. First, I do have to say that while waiting in the waiting room Josh had to say "It smells like pregnant people in here!" What do pregnant people smell like?!?! I just stared at him with confusion. He's slightly clueless. Then, while in the Dr's room waiting for the doctor he was very mesmorized my the posters on the wall. You would think he was a 13 year old boy in health class. It was very hilarious!! Now back to the ral appointment. The heart beat was very cool. Everything I expect it to be, a lub-dub-swishy-sloshy sound. It was beating 180 beats, which is considered fast. Which to some people mean girl, but the Chinese calendar say I'm having a boy... so I guess we'll have to wait another 10 weeks to be sure. It was so weird knowing that there is something really alive in my belly. I can't wait for my future appointments and to watch our baby grow... along with my tummy ha!!

Up to this point my pregnancy has been ok. I started getting very nauseas and sick at 6 weeks. All day long and not knowing what I could and couldn't eat. It was awful! I thought for sure it was getting better but today Josh and I went to Pzza Factory and yep that all came back up!! I have to add that my list with tuna, lasagna, garlic bread and the occasional tooth brushing in the morning. I keep telling myself that so many women have it worse than I do so I try to keep positive about it. I have lived off Tums for the past 10 weeks I have surely kept them in business!! I do have to say that I am really greatful that my pants still fit!! I feel like I am getting bigger but my clothes still fit and I have lost weight not much and not by the choice I'd like to. But I am always looking for things that I can wear and am very greatful for the styles being so flowy and big.

I am also very greatful for my hubby Josh. I have been an emotional roller coaster for the past 10 weeks. He has put up with my moodiness and sickness so well. I keep telling him that the bad trimester is almost over and we can get back to cuddling and going out and enjoying each other. I feel so bad and know I am being a beast but sometimes I just can't help it. I love him so much and as much as I say I have his demon baby in me I don't mean it. I truely love him and this baby with all my heart. He is going to make a great dad!!

PREGNANT

If you haven't already heard... yes I am pregnant!! And when you read my next post you'll understand that Josh and I had a very good time in Mexico!! We are joking that our baby will come out brown and with a shot of Tequilla!!
Josh and I have been wanting to start a family for some time but wanted to have one last amazing trip with no responsibilities. I went off my IUD January 9 and found out I was pregnant February 1- yes Super Bowl Sunday!! I was very anxious to take a test but knew that it was early but took one anyways. The first test I took was a very faint blue positive line. I wasn't sure if it was really there or if I was imagining it there because I wanted it there. So I went back to the store and bought a dummy proof kind that said "pregnant" or "not pregnant" and sure enough... "pregnant"! My sister was the first one I called and I kinda freaked out when I said it out loud. I was so excited and freaked out at the same time. Was I really ready for this? Of course that day I had to go to a Super Bowl party at my in laws (all without Josh, he was at work). I'm not good at holding secrets and I for sure thought I was going to spill the beans but I held it! Josh wasn't going to be home for another 10 days and it killed me every time I talked to him on the phone but I just couldn't tell him that way, I had to see his face. So I came up with telling him on Valentine's Day. I know! I know! I had to hold it for 4 more days while he was home!! It was so tough. For Valentine's day we went to my favorite restuarant The Melting Pot. I wrapped up my postive test in a box and gave it to him. He was so excited!! He said he knew (yeah right that dang ego of his!) but I knew he was surprised.
After dinner we went to Build-a-Bear and each picked out and built a bear for our parents. We bought t-shirts and I ironed on letters that said "Dress Me For A Grandbaby". Our parents were so shocked but in a good way. They are very excited. All my dad cares is that we don't neglect our first children... our puppies!!